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adam_pudge_hile
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Name: Adam
Gender: Male
Interests: football, video games, girls, work.
Expertise: bull shitting, talking, impressions.... you know stuff like that
Occupation: board opp. at wmsh radio stati
Message: message me
MSN: msuwatcher@msn.com
Member Since:
2/8/2007
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| im sure no one really reads this anymore, but that doesnt matter. i just kinda use this as an outlet to get stuff off my mind when i dont have anyone around to talk to. so anywho, i was just thinking to myself man im not really too happy. i mean im happy, but there just feels like there is something missing in my life that i would to find. ive been tryin to figure out what the answer is but i have had no luck. i guess you could say im kind of in a funk or something. its not really a bad thing, but at the same time its just not good either. at some points i think it just might be a case of the winter blues. i mean hell in michigan the months of the last three months have all kinda just blended together to creat one long ass cold month. but i cant really blame it all on the weather and the fact that michigan sucks ass when it comes to that subject. i just really need a breath of fresh air and something good to happen to me for a change. i usually try my best to make sure the good things happen to the people around me cause thats just what i do, but right now i just really want something good to happen to me. ill take what ever i can get right about now.lol. i just need a change or something to help me get out of this semi funk. anyone that knows me knows when i get into a funk it takes me a while to get out so i suppose i want something good to happen for me so i dont fall into a real funk. idk why im saying all this crap, it prolly doesnt even make sense to anyone else, lol, but oh well. its all good and i dont care cause it kinda made sense to me. well i suppose thats all for now folks, enjoy the reading and ill hit yall up later on down the road. peace. A"P"H | | |
| if you ever wanna know who has your back here is what you do. just look around the room at all the people that say they have your back. look deep into their eyes. you will notice something when you ask this question... do you have my back no matter what? idk what you will see, but i usually see a sort of seriousness in my friends eyes when i ask them this question. those who dont really have your back will say something like "yeah dude, you know i have your back." then they will give you a hug or something to break eye contact cause they know if you can focus in on their eyes you will be able to see they are full of shit. this is just a lil something for yall out there that still read this dumb ass thing.lol. till next time, peace out. APH | | |
| how do you defeat somone that has nothing else to lose? well you cant. because the most dangerious person in the world is someone that has nothing to lose. they live life with a reckless disregard. the dont think twice about who their actions affect or anything. the walk through the fire, even if it means bursting into flames themselves. they will do what ever it takes to win or they will die trying. every now and then they will show a little emotion. usually they will crack a smile when life knocks them down and starts kicking them while they are down. they will just sit there and take every blow, smiling through the pain and torture. this will eventually frusterate their rivals because no matter what they throw at them they just take. wave after wave after wave of punishment from life. they depend on one person and one person only... themselves. plain and simple, just look out for yourself and you wont ever be let down by others. i would like to live my life like this. just becuase anyone that knows me knows i always think twice. i always second myself and i always put my feelings aside for those around me to try and make them feel better. in the past when life knocked me down i would struggle to try and hold on to others around me thinking they would help me make it better. but after some things that have happened to me a while ago i have decided that the only one that can make me better is myself. i need to stand up on my own. will it work out for me, i have no idea. but as of right now im finally back to being semi happy. i do still care about my close friends and a few others outside my "inner circle". i've stopped just handing out my trust like it's candy. these are just a few things that have been running through my head over the past idk like two months.lol. one of my knew mottows is from the movie the watchmen... " the world will look up and shout SAVE ME!, and i will whisper back...no." i guess you could say my days of being a hero for every person that comes to me and has a sob story are over. im going to be that guy that sits there and takes the blows with a smile on my face just to piss off the ones handing out the blows. after all.... what else do i have to lose? APH | | |
| here are a few simple rules to being one of Adam Pudge Hiles friend. 1. dont lie. if you are one of my friends i will always be honest with you, and all i ask in return is that you be honest with me. if you cant do that then please dont attempt to be my friend because once i find out that you lied to me you use a strike and with me three strikes and your out. unless your lie is ment to keep me from being hurt in some way or if its for a suprise party. 2.be trustworthy. what ever you do, dont lose my trust. this usualy happens when people lie to me. losing my trust is one of the biggest things that will mess up our friendship. this is usually the second strike against a person right after they lie to me. 3. dont lose my respect. once you lose my respect its lights out. there will be no way for you to regain my full friendship. i always give people the respect that i would hope they would give back to me. respect is so precious to me and i would hope my real friends with think so too. if you lose my respect you will disapoint me and and to me having somone disapointed in you is worse than having someone mad at you. those are the 3 big rules you will need to learn if you ever want to be a true friend of Adam Pudge Hile. stick to these rules and you will have one of the most loyal people in the world on your side. *only one person has ever broken all three rules and has just about lost APH as a friend at this point in time* | | |
| so i would like to ask a question to anyone that still reads this thing. is it ok for a somone to want revenge? at this point in my life i would like to know if that feeling is ok, mainly because i have just been stabbed in the back by a person that said he was my best friend. to catch some of you up myself and a girl just broke up about 3 weeks ago. my friend decided he wanted to help me out a lil by talking to her for me. well during this process of "helping" me he fell for this girl. i totally understand why he did cause i still have feelings for this girl as well. but after i asked him the first time if he liked her he told me "if she were to tell me she liked me i wouldnt talk to that girl anymore, cause i wouldnt do that to you pudge cause your my mom boy." so i took that and ran with it. well this friend finally decided to tell me that he and my ex were haning out and that he liked her. he then went on to say that she was "the one" cause she is deiffernt than the other girls that want to be with him. i think thats a load of shit cause why is it ok that she can be his one, but she cant be my one? that is really bothering me right now cause he knew my feelings for her and he still went out and put himself in a position to fall for this girl. other than the feeling of betrayel and being hurt by a couple people that i really did care about. now back to revenge why do i have this feeling that i want to do something to make sure my "friends" true colors show. and by true colors i mean going to parties and not really hooking up with girls, but macking on any girl that comes through the door along with grinding on any girl that crossess his path. i cant stand the fact that he thinks its ok for him to do that stuff and still look me in the face and tell me that this girl, that i honestly could see a long term future with, is "the one". honestly what the fuck! if anyone out there has any adivice for me please let me know what i should do with all these feelings cause im just tired of this kinda thing happening to me all the time. | | |
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